Thursday, September 14, 2017

sleep remedies

Addenda September 2023:
No longer talking prilosec, taking atenolol instead

Currently using Apollo Neuro instead of hemi-sync. 


No longer taking progesterone, due to having had ovarian cancer, though that was mostly due to an undiagnosed BRCA2 mutation

No longer using pillows between my arms and knees

No longer using wrist braces. While these helped my carpal tunnel syndrome, they aggravated the arthritis in my thumbs. Just trying to dictate more, rather than typing 

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I originally did this on twitlonger, back in 2012.  It's hard to find twitlongers, so I'm putting this up here, now

link to original twitlonger

http://www.twitlonger.com/show/hp84rd

I don't use progesterone any more, btw, because I got ovarian cancer and my doctors feel that this hormone might encourage tumor growth

skysong263

Skysong263 ♜ ☄ · @skysong263

 10th Jun 2012 from Twitlonger
@joshgroban More about what I have to do to go to sleep

11) Caltrate + Minerals (else I get muscle tension & joint pain)
12) God Box (If anything is bothering me, or on my to do list, I write it down & put it in the box for God to take care of overnight. It's sort of like what Dumbledore did in Harry Potter, where he pulled extra thoughts out of his head with his wand and put them in the pensieve)


(BTW -- my progesterone container says some men also need progesterone supplements in order to sleep. My experience is that without it I get racing thoughts that keep me awake.)

Yesterday's post repeated:

What I have to do to go to sleep

1- prilosec for GERD
2 - melatonin
3 - progesterone
4 - pillows between my elbows & knees
5 - wrist braces
6 - mouthguard
7 - yoga before bed
8 - journal before bed
9 - bedtime prayer
10 - hemi-sync (Sleep with CD player)

Without any of these things, I can't sleep. With them, I'm fine.…

Friday, July 21, 2017

Editing wikipedia article about @theloosh

I am noticing that the wikipedia article about Lucia Micarelli is a stub.  I put a whole lot of stuff on the talk page about it.  I don't like to put stuff on the main page, because it gets so heavily edited.  I just want to reproduce what I put on the talk page here before it gets effaced somehow.

I'm not sure why this thing is getting right and left justified.  I have it set for only right justify

== Other career milestones ==

I'm putting this here, rather than on the main page, because I'm so sick of self-righteous editors deleting my stuff.  Frankly, I think editors are destroying wikipedia by making it too hard for ordinary people to post.  I'll let someone else deal with the co-dependent drama.  But there is a whole lot more to her career than what is on the main page

For instance, I see that the over-zealous editor has deleted the reference to the solo performances with Ian Anderson, because the point was surrounded by other language the editor didn't like -- effectively throwing the baby out with the bath water.  Here are two youtube videos from January of 2006 of their appearance in Vienna https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTVuFKozfJg https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ttGl-Mt302Y

While the main page refers to her tours with Josh Groban it neglects to mention that she appears as a soloist and concert mistress  in two of Josh Groban's DVDs: "Live at the Greek" and "Awake."  This music was characterized as classical/pop crossover.  Her solos, "Kashmir" and "Bohemian Rhapsody," also appear on YouTube.

Again, while the main page refers to her touring with Chris Botti, it doesn't mention that she also appears  as a soloist on Chris Botti's DVD and CD from his "In Boston" concert playing "Emmanuel."  This is on youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m8NN4fpdm40

She appears prominently on a DVD/CD called "Love Project Journey,: organized by a percussionist called Yael.  This DVD/CD features improvisational/experimental music. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1523352/fullcredits?ref_=tt_ov_st_sm

Here is a youtube video of her playing with Josh Groban and David Foster on "Mi Mancherai" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJwNS-FPXOI

She did a duet of "Kashmir" with William Joseph on his CD "Beyond." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P1hsAtAOGcs  https://www.pandora.com/artist/william-joseph/beyond/kashmir-feat-lucia-micarelli-violin/TRx2jgz3ndrnmbK

She had a single "One More Cup of Coffee" on a fundraising CD Set for Amnesty International called "Chimes of Freedom" along with Steve Earle.  On this single she both plays the violin and sings, revealing a bluesy singing style. https://music.amnestyusa.org/products/steve-earle-and-lucia-micarelli-one-more-cup-of-coffee-valley-below

She can be heard in several pieces on the CD's coming out of the Treme show.  These include "I Don't Stand a Ghost of a Chance," "New Orleans Blues," "Heavy Henry," "Spring Can Really Hang You Up," and "Carved in Stone."  These songs are in the New Orleans Jazz genre.

She toured with Chris Botti again, more recently, including in the 2015-2016 season.  During these performances she was featured soloist on several pieces.  I counted 5 or 6. http://www.bluenote.net/newyork/schedule/moreinfo.cgi?id=13655

She had a PBS special filmed June 3, 2017 https://events.kcrw.com/events/an-evening-with-lucia-micarelli-filmed-live-for-pbs/

The music of the Trans-siberian orchestra has been characterized as symphonic metal.

Also, she studied with Pinchas Zukerman, a very notable violinist, in the classical genre.

The variety of genres that she has undertaken is notable.

I believe that the emotional style and the unique sound of her playing are also notable -- even though the editor doesn't like to hear about it.  Josh Groban recently tweeted that no one sounds like her https://twitter.com/joshgroban/status/870506744446832641  If you watch videos of her playing, you can see that what she is doing with the bow is not what other violinists do.  It's hard to put these things into words, but presumably some future scholar, studying her work, will be able to explain why she is able to make the violin sound like other instruments, such as electric guitar (Kashmir) and tenor sax (Heavy Henry).  It's hard to verbalize these things before the academic vocabulary characterizing her work is developed by scholars.  There is a huge bias in wikipedia in favor of academic language developed by scholars, which results in ordinary people who try to describe this stuff in conversational English getting censored.

Another notable thing about her is her history of performing barefoot, which is visible on all of the DVD performances -- and some of the youtube videos listed above.

== personal life ==
She is originally from Queens, NY.
She is mixed race being of Korean and Italian ancestry

She has been married  https://twitter.com/theloosh/status/451945873573183488 https://www.instagram.com/p/mWvDamn18R/  Though I heard she may have gotten divorced


Thursday, June 1, 2017

What do I believe?

What do I believe?

I was asked this question by a twitter user who self-identified as a Jehovah’s Witness.  My response here is shaped in part by her having identified herself that way. I might have written something different to someone else, but not sure about that.

I don’t expect this document ever to be completely finished. I will think of new things to write in here, I’m sure.  So here goes.
  • The true name of God is unpronounceable.  No human names for God are correct or incorrect.
  • The religious/spiritual experience is universal, but non-verbal.  The use of words to describe this experience leads to conflict.
  • The true nature of God is not understandable. No human scriptures or religious texts are correct or incorrect.
  • No person or group of people has a monopoly on the truth about God.
  • Asking the question “Do You Believe in God?” is non-sensical, because whether one believes or not depends on how the word “God” is defined, but the word cannot be defined, because human language is insufficient.
  • The confidence of particular individuals in the truth of their own scriptures or their own interpretation of scriptures relates to their particular personality, but not to the accuracy of their interpretation or scriptures.
  • People who push their religious beliefs on others are insecure and need others to validate them.  Often they are bullies.  Often they are crazy.  I was nearly attacked by a street preacher when the guy I was walking with decided to talk to the preacher about what the preacher was saying.
Nevertheless, I was raised Protestant, so I have been strongly influenced in my thinking by that formation.

I have been very drawn to the Baha'i' faith, and to the three unities expressed by Baha'u'llah, but I have never declared myself to be a Baha'i', because I haven't done enough research to be sure that I understand all the implications of that.

The above being said, I nonetheless share some of these personality issues that make me want to push my beliefs on others.

Some more beliefs
  • conscientious objection to war and military service.
  • sanctity of the environment as God’s creation.
  • sanctity of truth — and repulsion toward people who lie.
  • wrongness of oppression of people based on gender, age, race, LGBTQIA, religion etc.
  • Generally I like free speech and deplore efforts to suppress it. 
  • I am pro-choice. I do not believe that killing human embryos, prior to the appearance of human brain activity, is murder. Fetuses later in development are a bit more troubling to me, though it depends on the circumstances.
  • some social justice: i.e. basic safety nets for everyone -- though I still accept that some would be richer than others, and I don't believe in government ownership of the means of production
  • 12 step approach to self-improvement

This twitter user asked me how my beliefs are helpful. Yeah. I do believe that if everyone shared my beliefs this would be a better place. Sure.  I know everyone thinks that, but of course I think I'm right.

Regarding Quakers (Religious Society of Friends):

I am an unprogrammed Friend.  I identify with Friends General Conference, rather than FUM or FEA.  

Quakers do not have a creed.  You cannot say, based on the affiliation of a person with this movement, necessarily what they believe.  I cannot speak for others.

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Addendum:

I have also been influenced by Yoga, which I started studying at age 13.  I'm also drawn to aspects Zen Buddhism and Taoism.  Some Zen practitioners regard unprogrammed Friends/Quakers as practicing a form of Zen Buddhism -- though, also, some Quakers are very insistent that Quakers should be Christian.

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5/23/21

I was asked by my Quaker Meeting to formulate what I believe.  I looked back at this blog, but decided that there were some things I wanted to re-word.  This is what I have so far:

The divine as unknowable.  This is a core belief for me. Neither the divine nor the physical universe can be completely encompassed by human speech or thinking.  What happens may seem illogical or harmful.  This is due to our deficiency in thinking, not to the divine. 


All names and descriptions are wrong.  The divine is not impressed by any one wrong description over another.  Logical inconsistencies between religious beliefs can also be explained by the unknowable nature of the divine.


The word God is a variable, like the letter x in Algebra. It represents the answers to unanswerable questions.


Trying to prove the existence of God is nonsensical.  First, there is no consensus as to what the word “God” represents.  Many people seek to prove or disprove the existence of God using a concept of God that they understand to be promulgated by some group — but that group lacks actual authority to define God and the person making the argument may not even understand what that group actually believes.  Second, the nature of logic is to reason from assumptions to conclusions. Logic can show that certain assumptions are inconsistent with each other, but the assumptions are taken on faith.  Trying to prove an assumption is stating right up front that you lack faith in that assumption.  If you say you are going to prove the existence of God, that means that you do not have faith in God.


Sense of contact: Many people have a sense of contact.  I think some people call this a “personal relationship” with God. What is this? Is it actual contact with an external divine being or an interesting neurological phenomenon? People sometimes seem to be inspired by their sense of contact to speak words or take action.  Often these words or actions lead to conflict. I’m not sure if that’s good or bad. I do like meditation, yoga and Zen koƤns, tho.


Life after death: I’m not particularly attracted to this concept.  However, I believe, from physics that time is a dimension.  Things that existed in the past are not gone.  They are just located in a particular section of time that is not currently accessible to us.  That does not mean that it will never be accessible to us.  Moreover that does not mean that some divine entity cannot freely travel back there and visit what exists in that other place. I don’t really believe that people are dead.


I sometimes quote from religious texts or traditions because they seem to coincide with what I feel.  This is due to my literary upbringing.  I do not accord any religious text a sacred weight. Each text is the best effort of the authors to express their understanding.  Each text is wrong, but also has elements of rightness — elements that genuinely reflect a historical divine inspiration. Each text must be interpreted within a historical context. It cannot be applied in a simple minded fashion to current events.   


I get annoyed by detailed systems of signs, numbers, symbols, or diet that purport to be religious or spiritual.

The concept of free will is not attractive to me.  I believe that most of what goes on in the brain is in the subconscious, based on what I’ve read of reports of scientific literature.  The conscious brain is a delusional egomaniac that thinks it is in charge, when it is the tail thinking it is wagging the dog.